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Why are people so fucking obsessed with the goddamned “cave scene” in the Hunger Games? I don’t get it - what am I missing with this? So many horrible things happened before everything brought them together. 

What is so important about the “cave scene” that I see it everywhere? The only reason why Katniss went to find Peeta was because they were told that they could survive together, she didn’t actively seek him out before hand, believing that he betrayed her. Even before the games she thought he was going to try and kill her. 

I don’t understand how that “cave scene” can be construed as romantic when Katniss was only doing what she did to survive. In the circumstances, she wasn’t falling for Peeta, she was trying to make sure that he would live since he gave her a chance at life with the bread all those years ago. 

This is making me angry. … I hope I can learn to ignore it. It just gets under my skin seeing/hearing people, women, squeal about it. Augh. I hope this doesn’t ruin the movie for me. 

As always: Spoilers ahead. And a lot of opinions. 

So, I’ve finished the first book and I have all ready started Catching Fire (I would like to reiterate that the second book is my favourite). I will be starting that tirade when I get done with part I. I know I’ve said a lot about this book all ready, but it’s nicely broken up in three pieces. This is probably not the last you will hear about this book, but I am sure that this the bulk of it. 

Part III had a lot going for it - it kept up a nice pace, a good twist and at the very end let us have that impression that the Capitol was really more sinister than we believed. There was a lot packed into those last nine chapters. Let me not get ahead of myself, I will start right this time. Mostly.

So, we hit part three and we know that the rules have a changed a bit; this rule change only affects Peeta & Katniss and Cato & Clove. Thresh and Foxface have no one left and work stronger alone than with another person to take watch out for - the rule change says that two winners from the same district can win, and we all know it’s for Peeta and Katniss.

I am not a fan of the whole Katniss and Peeta “romance.” But, I understand why it works, why it was encouraged by Haymitch. It strikes a chord in people, especially people who enjoy a good soap opera - lots of drama, lots of tension and that moment we can all sigh in relief. When she realizes that they can both live, it’s a relief to her. I don’t think it’s because she loves him - Katniss is so confused and so very against being in love because of the life she is afforded in Panem. And she’s only 16! I think sometimes we forget that these characters are just fucking children. She’s confused, away from home and doesn’t think she’s going to survive. Having a chance to work with a partner that she doesn’t have to kill or fear death from is pretty powerful.

I realized when she found Peeta exactly why I don’t like him: he’s a teenage boy. I never liked teenage boys, even when I was that age (it’s been almost 10 years now). I know that he’s doing everything he can to keep Katniss alive because he loves her or he thinks he has undying love her, I can’t judge that because for all I know he does, and I’m just too cynical. Both wanted to survive together, even if for different reasons. 

I know that Katniss is confused - she wants to like Peeta but is conflicted because how she came to find out and I know that deep down, if things weren’t so messed up in her world, she would allow herself to fall for Gale. Katniss raised her sister, she knows what kind of life children would have in Panem, what kind of pain comes from loving someone when they are finally taken from you.

The rule change was a godsend, so to say, because then Katniss wouldn’t have to kill Peeta, who would willingly die for her. She wouldn’t have to be the bad guy. People were paying attention to their love story, ignoring the other parts of the arena really - cos Cato and Clove? They were was something there, even if only a slight friendship, it would’ve made more sense for Cato or Clove to kill one another quickly when the odds were down to Katniss, Thresh and Foxface. Peeta didn’t matter, he was slowly dying.

And who’s to say that if Cato and Clove won, ignoring the fact that rule was changed when Katniss and Peeta were last standing, that they would want the other to survive? Winning comes with a huge price - glory, money, food for your district. Why would a Career want to share this glory? 

I know that there is sentiment because you share the same district, but the Careers aren’t compassionate. I’m betting that those kids are raised to be ruthless and not care about anyone in the arena - not kin, not friends, not “countrymen” so to say. They are elevated in their own Districts, they are trusted to bring glory and food to their people.

Saying all of that, I can hear the fear in Clove’s voice when she knows that Thresh is about to kill her;  I can hear the desperation in Cato’s when he calls back to her, trying to get to her. He was in pain watching her die - he wanted her to live and I can’t help but wonder if he would’ve died for her if they were the last two left or if he would’ve turned on her when the moment came to it. Clove called to him, desperate to have him by her side. My mind starts wondering if Cato would’ve let Clove survive had they got to the end and the rule change revoked or would he have turned on her as swift as the wind? 

The sentimental part of me wants to say he would die for her, the logical part of me says that he would disembowel her as sure as the sunrises. I know that he went after Thresh once Clove died, he stayed with her until the end and killing Thresh couldn’t have been an easy feat. I want to think that he did it as a sort of revenge for her, but then again, Thresh did steal his backpack.

The death of Foxface is perfectly described by Katniss - Peeta’s own ignorance was her downfall. Foxface was over confident in her opponents in knowing what they could and couldn’t eat - she paid for it with her life. Of course, I believe that if she didn’t die from the nightlock those wolf muttations would’ve slaughtered her. 

Which brings us to the most horrifying death in this book. Cato. I know that Rue’s death was pretty fucking sad and I am sure that the first Tributes to die at the cornucopia died in gruesome and bloody ways, but we didn’t have to watch those people die and Rue’s death was offset by her being taken care of by Katniss.  People would remember her singing this little girl to sleep, burying her in flowers. 

There was no relief for Cato, not really. Katniss could’ve given him relief when he first fell, or rather when Peeta gave Katniss the signal to shoot him down, and the mutts came over him like a pack of rabid, starving animals. I know that Katniss was pretty freaked out seeing the eyes and amulets of the mutts, seeing Glimmer inside one of those creatures. For a brief moment, I wonder how Cato felt when he saw Clove’s eyes staring at him, intent on slaughtering him. 

His death was disgusting. Was there anything to give back to the family when the hover craft finally took him? Did he have the glory of his District or was he used an example how to not survive in the arena? Whatever happened, the nicest thing that happened that next morning was Katniss launching an arrow into his skull, easing his pain in that one movement. I struck me when he begged for it, said that simple “please”, that despite the bravado, he was probably just as scared as the rest of them.

I always forget that all of these people are just children. All of their awful actions against one another is because they are made to do that, they are against their wills here, even if they are Careers. Not that it would be better if these things happened to adults, but somehow that wouldn’t sting as much.

The moment that I know gets to a lot of people is after the reversal of the single district rule that causes Katniss and Peeta to attempt joint suicide - it was a perfect moment. In that moment Peeta didn’t have to kill Katniss and she could tell him without words that she understood when he said he was going to be more than a piece in their Games. They were rule breaking, in a way that no one could stop once it started. 

For once, the Capitol had no control over something.

Of course, this started a shit-storm that swiftly followed after, leading to my favourite book in the series. I did like the ending of the First book, the way Katniss handled herself and slowly fell back into the role of awkward teenage girl trying to get home to her family. The scene with the train, Peeta realizing that she did everything for the cameras, to stay alive and that she might not love him back at all. 

It strikes all at once that she wasn’t just unsure about Peeta, she was also unsure of Gale and completely torn because it was probably just hitting her that she was crushing on both of them; her heart confused because she knows Gale, but Peeta killed for her, risked his life for her. So, is she having thoughts about Peeta because the situation they were in or is it because she finally got to see him as he saw her all those years? She’s so adamant about not falling in love, not marrying and not having kids, this must feel like a betrayal of her heart and body. 

I talk a lot about Katniss, but I think about Peeta and Gale, too. Both practically fighting for her in that world; Peeta has leg up in this though - he lets himself feel for Katniss. He knows he has nothing to lose, not really. Gale on the other hand, has a whole world with Katniss, something that I sure the risk of having Katniss deny him is not worth losing, not yet anyway. 

Peeta went into these games prepared to die for Katniss. We can tell by how his family is, that they don’t really care either way for him. Or more practically, they couldn’t let themselves feel for him in this instance. The chances of Peeta coming home alive are non-existent; to his family he is probably all ready dead, this is just their chance to say goodbye and from what I gather, no one really knows how to say goodbye in this world. It’s too hard, people die too frequently.

Peeta would have an advantage over Gale in the fact that Katniss doesn’t like to owe people. Gale and Katniss work together - they hunt together and they take care of each other’s families. She doesn’t owe him because their work is not mutually exclusive, they pay one another back with the act of taking care of another. Peeta gave her everything because he loved her without wanting anything in return but her love: the one thing that she cannot give him. Or rather, the one thing she refuses to give anyone except for Prim once their father dies.

Katniss though, has a lot to contend with coming up in the series, she doesn’t really have time to sort out her emotions, which debilitates her I think. She’s only allowed to mature to a point in this series, stunted by the things going around her. She’s an adult in a lot of ways and a little girl in so many others. Katniss isn’t allowed to emotionally grow in this world - she is practically the mother in Prim and has to take care of her because her mother can’t. The people who make Katniss the Mockingjay are irresponsible with her life. Not physically - Katniss can make those decisions, but mentally and emotionally. But we will discuss that when the time comes.

Now, we’re at the of the Games in the arena, and we are just starting the Games in the real world. A new challenge is about to begin and they all know what is on the line. The odds are not in their favor. 

Overall, I find the Hunger Games to be an excellent read. I don’t like it categorized as a young adult book because of the themes - I’m not going to say that preteens and teenagers aren’t capable of understanding the story, because I don’t know how teenagers are today. But I don’t think this book should be limited to the young adult section, it has a lot of themes that strikes chords with a lot of people, of varying ages. This was a very solid book. I would have accepted this story as a singular book - even with the ending; I’m glad its not though. 

This is definitely a book I’ll be keeping on my shelves.

Remember, this will totally be covered in spoilers. I also realize that I have a lot to say on the subject of the Hunger Games. I just haven’t been hit so hard by a series in a while and I have no wear else to discuss this; I welcome any thoughts on these things! :)

So, I’ve finished Part Two: The Games in the Hunger Game and knowing what I know from the other books, a lot of things made even more sense to me. 

Katniss singing Rue to sleep and shrouding her in flowers was as much for Katniss’s peace of mind as it was for ours, because we weren’t going to be given that kind of … closure with Prim. Rue’s death was one of many, but it signified that we weren’t going to have this kind of closure when the others we rooted for died. They would be as lost as the nameless Tributes of the Games. 

I also realized that the Capitol played the Games all year around; they keep the districts together but separated. These people hate each other just because someone lives in a district of better wealth; things that these kids have no control over in anyway. The children, because emotionally that’s who they are, are forced into this twisted life by a government who doesn’t really care about anything but their own survival.

I never think of the Capitol as a place per se, I think of it as a living thing. This beast that lurks in the center of this world, ready to destroy everything - not unlike our super massive black hole festering in the middle of our Milky Way. The Capitol makes things happen and takes things away; the main cog. But utterly useless without the rest of the Panem. 

I know that the Capitol can’t be the singular root of all problems but I do know that they are a major part; their fear lives within in all people, even those who don’t understand it. They destroyed their world and punished the Districts for not obeying. They take more than they return - the Capitol is a greedy beast, it wants and wants and wants.

The Capitol makes the decisions, who lives and who dies. No one questions it and they keep their citizens in the mindset of glorifying the death of the District Tributes. I can’t even imagine what they teach their children in school - it has to be different than the Districts. The Districts are taught fear, they are taught that they owe the Capitol for the meager things they do for them. 

The people of the Capitol aren’t taught fear - they have nothing to fear, not really. They are ignorant of a lot and they sincerely treat the Games as a celebration, something due to them. Not all of them, but most. Those people are the most scared when the revolution starts - I am sure that most of them don’t understand what happens in the Districts; they don’t realize that these people don’t deserve anything that happens to them like that, and that they are merely carrying the sins of the past. 

I know that Capitol shows its true colours by killing people in public execution, but it doesn’t mean anything to their people. It shows power, it shows them their place but no one truly fears it. It’s a punishment for defying the Capitol, it is a well earned death.

What must it be like living there, in the Capitol? Sectioned off from the rest of the world, everything at your fingertips. It’s like the Capitol is a large manor and the districts are merely the servants taking care of the machine. There is no care or thought, just take and take, no gratitude. 

The only thing the Districts earn is life. A shitty life for most, but a life nonetheless. In the better districts things aren’t too bad but they are not spared the Games. They are still looked down upon as unworthy to breach the Capitol - they just seem to deal with things a bit better. 

They have their Careers to help beat the system. They are part of the Districts way of bending the rules, testing the waters. They train and they kill to bring glory and money to their homes. They aren’t any different from the lower Districts, except for the fact that they haven’t totally given up on everything. I think they look at the Games in a different light - it’s a way to make life better for their people, even if they have to face the reality of death.

There isn’t much else to hope for, anyway.

I know that the books talk about the luxury the the upper Districts have, but we don’t all of that for sure, as it is also stated in the books, while people know what the trade of the District is, they don’t know what life is like outside their own walls. The Capitol only shows Panem what they want it to see - and they like to keep the Districts against each other. If the Districts are busy at each other’s throats, seething at the injustices they suffering against each other, they won’t target the larger enemy. 

They don’t realize that they can work together, because they are the same. You know the saying, the enemy of my enemy is my friend. Of course the Capitol knows this and that is why they keep them apart, keep them from looking at the real problem.

We don’t know what the other Tributes are thinking on the field, but I bet when they see Katniss wielding her bow, they know she has hunted. They know that she has been outside the walls and she lives to show it at the Games. Katniss has something that others didn’t even realize was in District 12: freedom. 

It’s not an all out, defy the Capitol freedom. But it’s freedom, something that I am betting the upper Districts don’t have, being so close to the Capitol, making such important things for their captors. There can’t be the same kind of freedom there as there is in the lowest districts. Even Rue had music, a simple song that brought a true joy to her and her people. 

We can start to see it when Thresh lets Katniss live for taking care of Rue. It shows us that they are not so different and that they can come together to help one another. In the arena it is not possible, but out in the world, there can be hope for all of them. Thresh and Rue, whether inadvertently or not, helped make Katniss the Mockingjay. Rue because Katniss showed true compassion for her, like it was Prim she was taking care of and Thresh because he spared her, wished good like to [the] “girl on fire.” 

I believe that those words were heard and they helped start the spark, even more so than her and Peeta trying to commit suicide. Thresh cemented her name there, a Tribute calling out an enemy as a friend, as something more than a just someone else to kill.

He wasn’t her friend though, and not her ally. For a moment, just a blink - but enough - they were equal. And that holds a lot of power. Right there is where I see the spark happening; I know that it is consensus that it is when Katniss and Peeta go to take the nightlock together, but I think that her moment with Thresh resonated with the Districts better; a single spark of hope for people in a desolate situation.

Her and Peeta with the suicide plan, that was a blatant act of defiance that the Capitol couldn’t ignore. It exasperated the situation - first they gave people hope and they told them not be scared, it’s all right. We have nothing else to live for, if we don’t live for one another. They told them its all right to not live for the Capitol, for the Capitol is nothing without them.

Like I said before, fear only holds people for so long. Eventually, they don’t care if they are going to die, they just want to take you with them. The dam is breaking and everyone will be swallowed in the flood. 

So, as I am rereading the book and discovering all sorts of crazy that I missed, I thought I would take some time out and talk about the upcoming movie. A movie that I wasn’t sure until asked at work if I was actually going to see it. If you haven’t read or finished the book, this will have spoilers.

I have not watched any trailers for the Hunger Games. I know who the cast is (or rather what they look like) but I have not seen them in action. I kinda want to be surprised when I sit down to this movie.

I was pleasantly surprised when I saw that Suzanne Collins wrote the screenplay. That means a lot to me when I decide to see a movie based on a book. I tend to not be as upset when things are changed around, it’s like the author is trying something new with the audience, with their fans. I like that - because they understand what we loved about the story, they usually know what they can and can’t change.

I know that there is a lot going on about the cast, it seems to be fifty/fifty on the love/hate situation. I saw the posters for the characters before I read the books and for the first time, I still saw who I wanted to see when I read the book. I can’t say if I like the cast or not, because I don’t know yet if they will make me feel how I felt when I read the books. 

Are the people they chose aesthetically pleasing? I suppose so - but I don’t look at that until I can feel the characters. Am I disappointed in some of the choices? Of course but again, I might not be after I see the movie (my main disappointment comes from Woody Harrelson being cast as Haymitch and not Jeff Bridges, who more closely resembles my imagined Haymitch). I can deal with other people’s imaginings on characters, cos it’s mostly just look.

I want the characters to make me feel like I did when I read the book: pissed off, raw, lonesome, sad, crushed, excited, loving, warm, cold and just plain confused. 

I’m afraid that I won’t feel those things, that I won’t be evoked to the swell of emotion that made me eat that series up in 12 hours. I’ve been so disappointed over the years by book related movies; the worst offender being The Lovely Bones. 

I LOVE THAT BOOK. I cry every time, it just kills me. And then I saw the movie and I didn’t feel it. I didn’t get upset by Susie’s rape, I didn’t feel the hope when she contacted her father, I wasn’t afraid for her sister when she broke into the house. I wasn’t even relieved when they killed him. I was happy that movie was over and I could go read the book again.

I can’t handle that disappointment with the Hunger Games. I want to be in my seat and gushing with fear when Katniss is in the games and she thinks she is going to die. I want to have that hiccup of the heart when they call Prim’s name. I want to have that sigh of relief when her and Peeta decide that they rather commit joint suicide rather than kill one another.  

I don’t care if they cast is what I saw in my head, I don’t give a shit what the costumes look like at all. None of that is important. I just want to feel justified in my attachment to this book, the characters and horrors that are inside of it. I haven’t had this much feeling for a book since I read A Summer to Die. 

That brings me back to the summer after fourth grade and I read the book without checking the cover. I had never felt so betrayed by a book or an author in my life. I might talk about that one day. Now is not the time. 

Anyway, so I am going to see the movie - also a big thing because I rarely see movies. I can’t sit that long without feeling like I’m being punished, last movie I saw was Harry Potter 7.2 in 3D. … Nerding it up in here!

So, here’s to hoping the Hunger Games is everything my heart feels. And that regardless on whether or not you yay or nay the cast, that everyone else who loved the books isn’t disappointed when we see it on the big screen. 

I’m re-reading the Hunger Games since whenever I first read a book or a series, I fly through them as fast as possible to get to the end. I only read the most important parts - major events and maybe some minor things. Of course that completely messes me up when I start actually thinking of the books.

There should be a warning here - ‘cos I’m probably gonna SPOIL the shit outta the series right here. I can’t help it, I have a lot of opinions and I love to discuss books. This will probably be a lot about the characters. 

Before I begin though, I should probably set things up on how I felt about the Hunger Games. I didn’t like the books - I LOVED the series, but I did not like them. I thought the whole series was disgusting and awful - just wretched in every way. The writing was beautiful, the plot amazing but the concept was just horrid. 

I do not like Katniss. I don’t think I was supposed to like Katniss - I certainly felt pity for her. I understand her actions, why she did what she did in the books. I get it - I’m a pretty hard person myself, emotionally stinted and had to grow up fast since there wasn’t anyone helping me out over here. I get it. 

I also hated Peeta. He rubbed me the wrong way. Everything he did, even at the end. That being said, I wouldn’t have wanted Katniss with Gale either - that would have never worked; he practically killed her sister. Neither could live with that guilt. 

Now, with that being said, let me start. As I stated before, I am now re-reading the Hunger Games, taking in the smaller details and I can’t help but wonder if it was all planned from the moment Katniss took Prim’s place, out of order, out of desperation and without thought. Was it right there when they saw it? The ones wanting revolution for so long, wanting the right person to make a stand?

Reading the small things catches my attention on the weirdest points, like the fact that Cinna wanted district 12, that he made them hold hands in all out defiance. I knew by the second book that he was for it, the taking over of the Capitol - but did it start there? Were they seeing everything that would play out soon? 

Were they waiting for someone like Katniss to appear to them? Even though I don’t like her, she’s an inspirational signal to that world, I can see it. She is a perfect anti-hero in so many ways. Taking over a tribute isn’t defiance, not really - not if you are from the better districts, not if you are prepared for them. Taking the place of a tribute in a place like 12? That speaks volumes to people everywhere - you don’t have to let someone die. You can be selfless. 

Fear only lasts so long to keep people down; eventually they don’t care if they live or die, and when they don’t care, that’s when things get dangerous. Katniss didn’t care in that moment about her life, she cared about Prim’s life - fear motivated her to act, instead of sit still. And I think that is where they saw it, how she could rouse people to order. 

Peeta being called was a stroke of luck. But I only think that to a point, because he asked for private coaching, before the games, before the interview - before the stuttered out quote that makes most people weak in the knees. Did he know as well, before Katniss? Was he part of the rouse too - in reading I realize that he did love her, but they were only 16 years old. Even with the way things are/were in their world, 16 years old only know so much about love. I know that they can feel it, they can taste it and it works but people grow older and sometimes a lot changes. 

As I ended the series the first time, I couldn’t help but think that Katniss stayed with Peeta because she felt that she owed him, she gave him kids and a life with her because he gave her life. It was her atonement for the things she did, the things she thought, for the pain he went through because of her. Katniss carries a lot of of the world on her shoulders, because that is how her life turned when her father died. 

Where was I going with this? Right, the planning of the revolution and Katniss being the crucial part of it and Peeta loving her. I don’t think people give Haymitch enough credit - yes, the man is a drunk but he’s a high functioning drunk and had been through a lot of shit. He knew a lot more than what he let on in the world. I know that he was highly involved in the whole taking over the Capitol plot - who suspects the crazy drunkard? It kills me.

Peeta asked for private training and then he’s spewing those words and protecting Katniss in the arena. I can’t sit here and believe that he didn’t know what was going on with it all. Like I said, I believe that he loved her, I just don’t think he loved her that much - he couldn’t know that by then, he was struck by her beauty and her wild ways - she was something different. 

Of course people will ask, how come everyone else knew and not Katniss? I think the answer is found as we continue on in the series. Katniss only cares for her family - for the very things she holds dear. Most of her life, caring for her family didn’t depend on the Capitol collapsing; she had to keep them healthy and well fed. Revolution didn’t factor into her plans. Keeping Katniss out of the loop, keeping her head with her family is what made her perfect. She would fight for them - then the country. 

We see Katniss struggle with being the icon, the Mockingjay in the story. It doesn’t make sense her in any way. She’s a fucking teenager who is worried about her kid sister. She didn’t ask for any of this - she merely wanted to take care of the people she loved. They put her in so many corners - she had no choice but fight by the end. To save her family, she had to take care of the country. I know that she didn’t do it by herself, but being that age, it probably felt like it. 

Katniss couldn’t know about her part in the Games, Haymitch and the others probably knew it would distract her from her goal and make out to be something less than desirable for people to get behind in this whole scheme. Katniss doesn’t need a lot of help to get people to support her. 

Speaking of people who did support her, I can turn my sights on Gale. I liked Gale, I liked what he stood for, how he held himself. I was glad when he moved on in his life. Gale stood behind Katniss until the end - until he couldn’t any longer. And it all stopped when Prim died. Was killed. Fucking obliterated. Gale practically killed her - and he knew it. 

Gale also knew that he lost Katniss way before that - he lost her after the Games. He couldn’t move on because she was right there, the world wasn’t open to him, not in the way he wanted. So, he stood by her, made sure the families were safe and that Katniss could inspire movement among the Districts.

I don’t believe that he lost to Peeta. Not truly anyway; like I said before, I think Katniss stayed because it was the right thing to do, at least in her mind. Gale left, Prim was dead, her mother couldn’t bear it and there was nothing left for her to do, so she returned Peeta’s favors to her. Katniss was a believer in repaying debts. She was trying to be a fucking saint.

Gods, this series just killed me. Fresh wounds were everywhere, completely just drama. I read most of the series without too many problems - like I said above, I didn’t like Peeta or Katniss. Most of the characters in the Hunger Games didn’t make a dent with me, not totally. But then I picked up Catching Fire and fell in love with Finnick and Johanna.

Catching Fire made me happy in a lot of ways and in a lot of ways it pulled out parts of me. I loved Finnick the moment he sauntered over to Katniss and offered her a sugar cube. Much like I knew that Snape was really an awesomely good guy in Harry Potter, doomed to death, I knew that Finnick was being a douche because he was protecting himself and all I could think was “dear god, she’s going to fucking kill him.” And I also thought, even though the age is wrong, he should totally look like Jensen Ackles. 

And Johanna. Anyone who knows me was not surprised that I loved her - to quote “of course you love her, she is you.” Which made me sad and happy at the same time. The girl is tough as nails and broken inside; she continues on because she has to, because death is just so… compliant. Staying alive, despite the things that happened, that was an act of defiance in her own right. 

Things came together in the second book (which is my favourite of the series), everything started making sense right there. I knew when Plutrach showed Katniss the watch what was going to happen; it seemed so … Casablanca-esque and I was screaming at the book for her to understand. For her to realize that they were betting on her - all of them. I want to say that she was being dumb, but she wasn’t. 

I sometimes forget that Katniss is just a teenage kid, scared outta her wits, trying to keep it together. And I think the world around her does, too.

This series killed me, it was so good. I couldn’t stop reading it and I’m starting again. I hate the story, I do. But I get it, it’s a story that needs to be told. I should be done with book one soon and then I will start rambling on about things from book two and three. I hope to have a whole series of these things … maybe next time I will talk about other things, but this series is so character driven and even things that aren’t people make such a mark. I think of the Capitol as a living thing. And wait until I start up about President Snow and Coin. I need a drink for that. 

I can’t be the only one who looks at the books like this - I’m sure of it. I have so much to say about these things but I have to take it one step at a time. I’ll have more soon, that’s a promise.