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i have been sobbing over the Doctor Who and Rory Williams tag for like the past hour and i keep seeing all these theories on the Angels and how everyone is upset that the Doctor couldn’t get Amy and Rory back or how they couldn’t go to him. 

did we forget about how the Tenth Doctor got taken by the Angels with Martha, they met Billy (Shipton) and the Doctor had to leave him there? It wasn’t just because they needed him to do things; it’s because he was taken by the Angels: a fixed point in time. Things all ready happened. Sally all ready had the DVDs. Billy was all ready dying the moment Sally met him. 

Amy and Rory were taken by the Angels. The gravestone all ready had Rory’s name on it. He was dead. We all saw it. We read about it - and it is literally written in stone. It’s not that they cannot leave New York, but their remaining time in the present was all ready devoured by the Angels there. It’s how they feed. They have no time left in the present, there is no way for them to come back. 

New York has never been good for the Doctor. Even when it’s New New New New New New New New New New New New New New New York. Daleks. Angels. Traffic Jams. Murderous Cat People Nuns. 

i’m gonna go cry in a corner.

i’m re-watching the first series of Doctor Who and i can’t help but want to watch “Bear With Me” because sometimes people do need to be put into a house with a bear. and it would be kinda funny.

also, does anyone else miss the feeling you get when you first watch a show and the pieces start to come together and you’re like: HOLY FUCK. i miss that when i re-watch a show. now i just look for little things, like Jack being an asshole and saying: “the pleasure is all mine ladies and in the end, that’s all that matters.” 

can i have a bit of amnesia, you just enough to be able to relive these shows like the first time? i want to know that i love these shows and then have them like the first time, every time. 

can we do that with books too? … can we put the Silence to good use and let them help us forget our books and shows - just enough to always relive them? 

… it’s late. and i’m rambling.

things one must remember not to do:

watch “Rose” and “Doomsday” in the same sitting. 

i don’t think i’m gonna make it. and it is all my fault.

aw yeah. downloaded my amazon prime instant videos onto the xbox and now i can watch movies when someone else is hogging the netflix. 

and now i get to rewatch my favourite Christmas special: A Christmas Carol. Sweetness. On a bigger screen. 

and write a book. yeah, i know. book writing. but!! SHARKS.

okay. back to work.

you know how sometimes you make delicious pierogi in butter and garlic and then smile into your food and then surf tumblr and decide that you need to surf a rory williams tag and then accidentally on an audio tag and you just start crying and potato is falling out of your mouth as snot falls down your face and the keyboard gets dirty because you hear a song about how rory and amy jumped off of a building together because they just love each other so much that they can’t stand the thought of the other being dead while they still live and you think oh, it is going to be okay and then you realize that it will never be okay and why oh why did you involve yourself in something like Doctor Who - it cannot be worth all the pain and suffering as you lose all your loved ones and think to yourself wow, i can still eat pretty well with gross sobbing?

yeah, me too.

this past friday i had the office all to myself. so i opened up spotify and listened to music. 

and then for some reason thought, oh i should listen to doomsday. and rose’s theme. and vale. 

and then i cried. i was sitting there, in the dark, in the office, crying while looking typing up organic certification files and trying to figure out what size shipping boxes we need. 

… if they look back at the tapes, they are just going to see a weeping silhouette in front of the computer with some orchestrated music playing the background. 

they all ready think i am crazy. now they will know.  

i’ve recently discovered that if you don’t love David Tennant, you are lying to yourself. 

it doesn’t even matter why you love him or how it came to be or if you only know to love him because someone else in your life shoved a picture in your face and said: “LOOK AT HIIIIIIIIM!”

if you deny your love, you are denying yourself. 

… 

that’s all.

Freaking out over Dinosaurs on a Spaceship. Omg. So fucking awesome. I’m not gonna make it

I just want to watch Docotor Who. Why does everyone need me on Saturday?

I keep reading all these Doctor Who feels about how much everyone is upset about one thing or another that happened in the Season Opener and I can’t help but wonder if I saw the same episode?

I may be a bit biased because I do so love Daleks. I have a teeny bit obsession with them and therefore, love everything that involves them. 

But for serious? There is so much hate going on about all things - characters, plots, writers and creators. Gezeus. I’m not seeing what other people are so upset about - I’m not saying that I liked everything about the episode, but I don’t know why everyone is so angry. 

I’ve been reading the reviews, the comments and I don’t understand. 

I think I may have watched a different episode. I want to go into more detail, but I won’t cos I don’t want to ruin anything for anyone.

omg. the season opener of doctor who? yeah, fell in love with Amy and Rory just a bit more. 

for serious, yo. i didn’t think i could there would be a way for Amy to bury in my heart more and then this. 

and Rory? *sigh* never really stops being human. 

Can’t wait for Dinos. 

{i apologize for the grossness of this post. i’m having an off day.}

I am sure that I have all ready mentioned how much I love Donna. I mean, when I first saw her in the Runaway Bride, I knew. It was love. Love at first sight. I was upset sure; I had just lost Rose, but how can one hate on Donna? 

Bitch is cray. And it’s awesome. 

God, when he finally travels with her and she hands him that hat box. Married, I tell you. Even though they aren’t in love, they love another. I don’t ship Donna and the Doctor, I am too much in love with Doctor/Rose or Doctor River. But dear me, the Tenth Doctor is  married to Donna Noble. 

It just makes me giggle so hard. … I’m gonna be so messed up when Donna leaves. 

I was thinking though, going through all the Rose posts and Rivers posts (and Rory posts, but he has nothing to do with anything in this post) and I can’t help but wonder why the hell are we so divided?

I know that that Doctor is the same man, always. I get it. I get that he loved Rose. He also loves River. I don’t think one is better than the other. I think that they are just what he needs. 

Does the Eleventh Doctor need a Rose? Not while he has River. Would I go batshit insane if Rose met the Eleventh? Yes. Would I be upset if he fell for Rose while River is still around? Totes magotes. 

The Doctor needs both his girls. Rose brought him back to life, River keeps him grounded. They balance him in different parts of his life. It’s sweet. 

I would totally kill for River and Rose to meet. That would be so sweet. I don’t think they would hate one another. Rose wants nothing more than for the Doctor to not be alone. Yeah, she rather she be by his side, but she knows she can’t. She wants his happiness. 

And I know she would see that River makes him happy.

And River? I don’t think she’s the kind that is going to let a past love of the Doctor’s life get in her way. She studied the Doctor. She knows him, his history. His everything. She wouldn’t give him grief over falling in love with a girl-turn-woman that he met after he destroyed his whole world. His whole being. 

I just don’t see that happening. I kinda see Rose and River meeting and then giving out all the juicy bits. River didn’t see much of the Tenth and Rose would be curious about Eleven. They would be like school girls who fell in love with the same bloke, different timelines, same man. 

Bonding experience. And then Amy could join in. It would be pretty awesome. 

… I have no idea where this post is going. But now I will just spend the night thinking about those three talking smack on the Doctor while he just blushes and insists that they stop whatever they are doing. And Rose sends him out for chips. And River tells him to take off that stupid fez. And Amy insists that he take Rory. 

Ah, life.

Why is Martha in Army of Ghosts as this dumb lady? I’m so confused. I love Martha … I don’t understand!!

So, I am going back and forth and re-watching episodes of Doctor Who and finally, finally watching Supernatural with the sound on (never done that before) and well, sometimes, I get confused.

I swear, I watch patches of Doctor Who, and when it gets too emotional, I switch to Supernatural. Well, I switched to the second show and heard the whispers of a song and I started sobbing, cos all I heard was “Doomsday” and I died. 

It’s fucking redunk. I don’t even remember what song was playing, but it wasn’t “Doomsday”; it was enough though, enough to send me into an emotional craze with gross sobbing. 

… In other news, I still check to make sure no one’s in the room with me when I watch Supernatural, cos, well, moms officially destroyed that happiness by making fun of me for watching it. Perhaps one day, I will come to terms with it.

Probably not.

I just wanted to declare my love for River Song and Rose Tyler. 

Because, really, those two women were meant for the Doctor.  I would kill to have River and Rose meet.