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right there at “The End of Time” and I have to say, I’m ready to usher in a new Doctor. Don’t get me wrong, I love Ten. Love him, not more than Nine, but it’s a love all the same. 

But, I’m pretty pissed at him. I’m at the fact that he left Rose with a half-version of himself. I’m pissed that he destroyed the Donna we all know and love, and I am pissed at the lines that he says at the end of “The Next Doctor”. 

The only person who left him, was Martha, and that’s because she knew that he would break her heart. No one else left him. He left them, crying on a fucking beach. No one forgot him, he took those memories away. And broke his hearts? No, that bastard did it to himself. 

So, I watched “The Planet of the Dead” and I was upset the whole episode. I couldn’t believe that he wasn’t going to take Christina with him, but I understood it. But he so needed her. Needs someone. 

And then, “The Waters of Mars” - who the hell did he think he is? Attempting to “fix” history or rather the future history of the world? This is why the man can’t be left alone - he has too much in his head, in hearts. He needs someone to tell him that it’s okay to let it happen. 

I was glad when Adelaide proved him wrong. Yes, it was sad that she killed herself, but it wouldn’t have happened that way if the Doctor hadn’t have saved her from her death. He said it himself, “it was a fixed point in time.”

Her parting words to him, her telling him off, he needed that. He needed to know that he was spiraling out of control and that this was it. He knows he is about to die, about to change again and he can’t stop it and he wants nothing more than to stop it, so he starts trying to save others because he can’t save himself.

And it fucking pisses me off. I’m ready, I’m ready for a new beginning. Maybe if he said something different to Jackson at the end “The Next Doctor” I wouldn’t be so upset, but I am. 

And I’m ready.